unexpected twists…
May 2022
I sense that I am seeing and drawing things differently.
Initial hesitancy or sketchiness is increasingly replaced by bold, sweeping lines.
Over time, I am beginning to take a measure of the man making the marks.
Status update.
Don’t you just love bureaucracy and form-filling? I know I do (not).
After four months of phone calls, emails, form-filling, toing and froing, twisting and turning, I now have an official professional status as an “artiste-peintre”.
(How did that happen?)
I will be able to derive income through any sales of my artwork while maintaining my job as a university teacher.
Not having to make a living from my art gives me the freedom to create.
Freedom to sell?
I never set out to sell my artwork. It was always an activity I did freely.
I had always associated money with constraint rather than freedom..
Then I was faced with a conundrum.
SPACE-TIME-FREEDOM (money)
I had never created so much art as in the last four years.
What on earth was I going to do with it all?
I started by giving it away to family and friends.
I didn’t want to burn all of it. I couldn’t keep it all.
When push comes to shove, what’s the point of keeping your art or your artist identity in the closet?
In January 2022, I weighed everything up. I wanted to spend less time doing academic research and publications and more time doing art.
There was no way around it, I would need more SPACE, more money for art supplies, a website, a studio SPACE which would allow me to create with bigger formats and make more mess.
I wanted to do exhibitions, I wanted to sell my freely created artwork. I didn’t want to do commissions..
Unexpected twists…
I was setting up for the weekly life-drawing class, ready for another relaxing session.
Suddenly, somebody asked, “Who wants to do an exhibition on the 3rd of June?”.
I heard myself saying “Me.”
Exhibiting.
I hadn’t really considered the practicalities of getting an exhibition together (at short notice).
It was also apparently, of course, the right moment to start the building of a website, I decided.
(Why? Why? Why?)
I have got myself tied up in knots so many times.
I should know better than to trust my worst/best instincts.
I know I won’t not trust my instincts in the future.
I am hard to live with at times.